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Title: Pavlovian
Author: ladybugkay
Fandom: Queer as Folk (US)
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Rating: R
Word Count: 804
Summary: Brian is a creature of habit. (post-513)
Disclaimer: Showtime and Cowlip and Russell T. Davies and others own the rights. I write for entertainment and intend no copyright infringement.
A/N: This isn't exactly a fic so much as a kind of list, I suppose, of stimuli and responses. What can I say? Apparently, it was too much for me to come up with a plot or dialogue, today. Also, it's a little fluffy.



The thing about Brian is that he is predictable. In some ways.

 

When Brian sees a baseball bat (in a magazine ad or on TV or over the shoulder of some kid in the park), he clenches his jaw and calls home just to hear the voice on the answering machine, then insults each and every person he encounters throughout the day until Justin gets fed up and fucks him into the mattress.

 

When someone says the name ‘Chris,’ Brian digs his fingernails into his palms until his knuckles are white and he draws blood, and he lets Justin feed him ice cream for dessert.

 

When he hears violin music in a store, he walks up to the nearest employee and gives them a hundred dollar bill to play something else. Then he stops at a music store and buys Justin a Nina Simone CD because Justin has a bit of an obsession.

 

When Justin wakes him up with a blow job, Brian gets to work at least twenty minutes late and actually remembers to say hello to Cynthia, and Justin walks awkwardly for the rest of the day.

 

When Brian walks past a store selling art supplies, he comes home with his arms full and his wallet empty. And it is very, very late before he and Justin fall asleep.

 

When Justin drags him to an art fair, Brian comes back covered in bruises from bumping into things because he was looking at Justin’s face the entire time.

 

When Brian sees a paramedic’s jacket, he looks away and stops talking and goes to find Justin.

 

When he hears an ambulance siren, Brian winces and covers one ear and steals Justin away for a quickie in the nearest private place he can find. Brian is very familiar with every public bathroom between his office and Justin’s studio.

 

When he enters a hospital, Brian feels cold, his stomach churns, and his face goes white. He holds Justin close all night and doesn’t sleep at all.

 

When he hears someone talk about God, Brian tells anyone who will listen about the time he fucked a priest. And Justin gives him his longest, hottest blow job and keeps him up until four in the morning.

 

When he wakes up alone, Brian doesn’t eat breakfast, and he goes directly to Justin’s studio. Then, at work, he curses all artists and offers Cynthia a raise for not commenting on the charcoal stains on the collar of his shirt.

 

When Justin has a nightmare, Brian holds him tight and throws one leg over Justin’s hip, keeping Justin’s head tucked in close to his neck. He rubs Justin’s back and whispers in his ear all the things he’ll never say under any other circumstances.

 

When Brian gets a cold, he insists that Justin stay home and entertain him, and he falls asleep with his head in Justin’s lap and Marlon Brando on TV.

 

When he gets his annual check-up, Brian calls Justin to tell him, ‘I’ll have the salad, not the soup,’ and that night, he takes Justin to Babylon and makes the whole backroom stare while he fucks Justin for hours. Then they stumble home to collapse against each other and fall instantly asleep.

 

When Justin makes jambalaya, Brian decides it’s a good time to be energy-conscious and set out candles, and they stay in for the night and fuck on the floor.

 

When Brian and Justin go to dinner at Mikey’s and Ben’s house, they leave after dessert and before Michael starts asking if they’d like to read the new chapter of Ben’s latest manuscript. After they come home, Brian ties Justin to the bed and takes all his fears of becoming domesticated out on Justin, who gives and gives and comes and comes. When he unties Justin, Brian wraps himself around him and buries his nose in white-blond hair, and he sighs contentedly.

 

When he dances with Justin, Brian gets hard. It never takes more than half an hour of moving against each other before he has to be inside Justin, and when they stay at Babylon longer than that, Brian wakes up the next day very tired and in a very good mood.

 

When he sees Justin in the shower, Brian gets hard. Then, on the way out the door, he reminds himself to pick up more condoms.

 

When he touches Justin, Brian gets hard. And he keeps touching him.

 

When Justin smiles at him, Brian kisses him and gets hard.

 

When Justin says, ‘I love you,’ Brian smiles and kisses him and gets hard.

 

When Brian says ‘I love you,’ he looks Justin in the eye and thinks about chicken soup and blue lights, a country manor and glitter falling from on high, comic book covers and white scarves and a streetlight that changed his life.

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Date: 2007-09-29 07:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theguernica.livejournal.com
New and interesting. All those subtle things that were never verbalized. Good job. :)

a streetlight that changed his life

Damn, they really do owe a lot to that street lamp. :|

Date: 2007-09-29 08:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks. And yes, they do owe a lot to that street lamp. I think Justin probably makes some sort of annual pilgrimage to it to say thank you, but only when Brian isn't around to notice. LOL

Date: 2007-09-29 08:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] arrowthroughme.livejournal.com
That was realling moving.
Loved it.
Nicki

Date: 2007-09-29 08:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

Date: 2007-09-29 08:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] masterglory.livejournal.com
Funny, moving, and soooooo Pavlovian!!!! ^___* Thanks, hun!!!

Date: 2007-09-29 08:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you! It was just a bit of experimentation in style, I think, but I'm glad you liked it. :)

Date: 2007-09-29 09:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crazybasketcase.livejournal.com
wow, that's all i can say, wow

Date: 2007-09-29 09:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
I hope that's a good wow! :)

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Date: 2007-09-29 10:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] halfspell.livejournal.com
Guh! I loved this! It's making me picture a smirking Justin listing all these things to himself. Faulous!

Date: 2007-09-29 04:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you! Yes, if it were Justin realizing all this and listing it to himself, that would be pretty much perfect.

Date: 2007-09-29 12:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kittykat2305.livejournal.com
I really liked this, it made me teary. But in a good way. I really liked the glitter falling from on high part, That was one of my favorite things said. Great job.

Date: 2007-09-29 04:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
I'm glad you didn't get teary in a bad way. As for the glitter phrase, well, the last line is my favourite in the whole thing, so I'm glad you liked it, too. :)
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Re: Pardon My French

Date: 2007-09-29 04:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Wow. Thanks so much. I have a weakness for the streetlamp line myself, so I'm glad you liked it. And this is your favourite story? Really? *blushes* You just made my day!! :D

Date: 2007-09-29 04:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sandid.livejournal.com
ohhhhhh, a mid-day snack. Nice and filling.

LOVELY

Date: 2007-09-29 04:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
It's not a Kit-Kat, but I'm glad it satisfied you and gave you a bit of a break. LOL

Date: 2007-09-29 05:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
That is not just a list, hon. That is most definitely a fic.

And I adored it so completely, I can't even pick a favorite "when"! :) Thank you for it!

Date: 2007-09-29 10:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Well, it's a fic in list format, maybe. It's really only near the end that the 'whens' really flow together.

But you liked it, and that's what really counts, so you're very welcome, and thank you for your comments!

Date: 2007-09-29 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alasse.livejournal.com
This was gorgeous. Loved all the details, and the hints that let us know they're together, and committed, and happy. This was like a celebration of TEH love. This line was totally beautiful: "When Brian says ‘I love you,’ he looks Justin in the eye and thinks about chicken soup and blue lights, a country manor and glitter falling from on high, comic book covers and white scarves and a streetlight that changed his life."
Amazing! Good job :)
Hugs,
Arlad

Date: 2007-09-29 10:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
*hugs you back* Thanks so much. The last line seems to have a lot of fans, which makes me very happy because it was my very favourite from the fic, and I feel quite proud of it.

And yeah, I didn't want to write (at least this time!) an explanation of how they wound up together-together post 513; I just wanted it to be an unstated understanding that they were together, and I'm glad that worked for you. Thank you for your wonderful comments.

Date: 2007-09-29 06:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jillapet.livejournal.com
That was lovely and unique.

Date: 2007-09-29 10:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you. There is so much good B/J fic out there that coming into it the fandom as a new B/J writer is a bit daunting, and I'm always afraid I'm doing something that's already been done to death, so I try to put my own spin on things and hope I don't bore people. LOL

Date: 2007-09-29 08:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jans-intentions.livejournal.com
Oh, I loved this.

Favorites:

When Brian walks past a store selling art supplies, he comes home with his arms full and his wallet empty. And it is very, very late before he and Justin fall asleep.

When Brian says ‘I love you,’ he looks Justin in the eye and thinks about chicken soup and blue lights, a country manor and glitter falling from on high, comic book covers and white scarves and a streetlight that changed his life.

When Justin makes jambalaya, Brian decides it’s a good time to be energy-conscious and set out candles, and they stay in for the night and fuck on the floor.

When Justin has a nightmare, Brian holds him tight and throws one leg over Justin’s hip, keeping Justin’s head tucked in close to his neck. He rubs Justin’s back and whispers in his ear all the things he’ll never say under any other circumstances.

When Brian walks past a store selling art supplies, he comes home with his arms full and his wallet empty. And it is very, very late before he and Justin fall asleep.


Loved all those!

Date: 2007-09-29 10:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks so much. You picked some of my personal favourites, as well, and I'm particularly glad you liked the jambalaya one, because it was added at the very last minute. :)

Date: 2007-09-29 08:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rosy5000.livejournal.com
That was so sweet. And probably so true. :) I really liked reading it.

Date: 2007-09-29 10:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
It's always good to hear that someone likes reading something I've written, so thanks for commenting.

>>That was so sweet. And probably so true.

I'm glad you think that, because I always like seeing the little things in a relationship--all those seemingly trivial moments and habits that really characterize how people feel about each other and make fiction characters come to life. That's a lot of what I was going for, here, and I'm happy that it came across.

Date: 2007-09-29 09:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] naleyangel.livejournal.com
I loved this :). It was really cute :). I love the bit about the streetlight and how you ended it :D. I love this :-).

Date: 2007-09-29 10:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks! I loved the ending, myself; it was actually my favourite part, and it makes me giddy to see how well-received the ending has been.

Date: 2007-09-29 09:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nolyana.livejournal.com
Excellent! :)

Date: 2007-09-29 10:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you.

pavlovian

Date: 2007-09-29 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bijou16.livejournal.com
hi kay,
i really liked this. you verbalized everything that was left unsaid. and yes a streetlight changed their lives for the better.
teresa

Re: pavlovian

Date: 2007-09-29 10:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks. I like it best when I feel I can add something to the characters or their relationship, and I think it's the quirks in a personality or a pairing that give it that je ne sais quoi.

Date: 2007-09-30 01:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] leslieo54.livejournal.com
Very nice - I love Brian-and-Justin-happy-together fics, and this is a nice look inside Brian's mind. Thanks for sharing!

Date: 2007-09-30 04:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you for commenting! I really do prefer my post 513 fics to end happily, because I refuse to believe otherwise about the future of Brian and Justin's relationship. LOL

Date: 2007-09-30 05:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anwamane13.livejournal.com

"When Brian says ‘I love you,’ he looks Justin in the eye and thinks about chicken soup and blue lights, a country manor and glitter falling from on high, comic book covers and white scarves and a streetlight that changed his life."

-WOW. I really loved it.

Date: 2007-09-30 07:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
I'm really glad you loved this, and that you like the last line, which was my favourite, as well. :)

Date: 2007-09-30 10:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kari77.livejournal.com
Loved this collection of Brian's behavior. And I can actually see him do all these things. :-)

When Justin drags him to an art fair, Brian comes back covered in bruises from bumping into things because he was looking at Justin’s face the entire time.

THIS has to be the most adorable thing ever written about Brian and Justin. I could go *awwww* over and over again just thinking about it. It says so much in one sentences! Brilliant

Thank you! :-)

Date: 2007-09-30 10:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
>>THIS has to be the most adorable thing ever written about Brian and Justin. I could go *awwww* over and over again just thinking about it. It says so much in one sentences! Brilliant

Thank you so much! It's a bit more sentimental a portrayal of Brian than the others in this story, but I couldn't resist because I do think it could happen. And if it worked for you this well, all I can is I am so happy it did.

I'm glad you think these actions are believable of Brian; I tried to be character-consistent, but I wanted to bring out a few elements of his personality that we didn't get to see on the show. Thank you for your wonderful comments!

Date: 2007-10-01 12:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amaranthink.livejournal.com
I love this! It is so spot-on! These little one-shots are so nice. Wonderful job of capturing the big moments of their life together!

Date: 2007-10-01 12:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Wow. Thank you. I'm so pleased you enjoyed these tiny glimpses into Brian's and Justin's life together, because I had a lot of fun writing them.

And I LOVE your icon! So hot.

Date: 2007-10-01 04:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] autumn-screams.livejournal.com
amaaaazing...

I really love how you were able to explain Brian in the way that he communicates the most.

thank you.

Date: 2007-10-01 10:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks. Brian almost never comes right out and says what he's thinking/feeling--it's always through his actions, and most often that means sex. Especially with Justin. But then every once in a while, he'll open up and say something so unbelievably honest it melts your heart, which is why I wanted the last sentence to have that same kind of impact.

Date: 2007-10-01 10:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
When Brian says ‘I love you,’ he looks Justin in the eye and thinks about chicken soup and blue lights, a country manor and glitter falling from on high, comic book covers and white scarves and a streetlight that changed his life.

Incredibly brilliant. It encompasses so much of who Brian is just right there. You are wonderful, my friend. Thank you for sharing.

Date: 2007-10-01 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
*blushes fiercely* Thank you so much. I wasn't sure how people would receive this one, although I liked it, and I'm gratified that so many people seem to really enjoy it.

And I'm especially happy that you approve, because I am very much in love with the story you are currently writing, so it means a lot to read such a positive review from you. Thank you!

Date: 2007-10-03 02:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sherebis.livejournal.com
ohh... write more... I'm liking your brian voice.

Date: 2007-10-03 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thanks! Brian's is a tricky voice, and I'm glad you like what I've done with it.

Date: 2007-10-03 06:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sannea.livejournal.com
Oh this is excellent. The last line is just perfect.

Date: 2007-10-03 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you. And I love your icon!

Date: 2007-10-05 03:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ex-reizaine184.livejournal.com
oh very, very beautiful!

Date: 2007-10-09 08:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Thank you!
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